I am afraid of beginning
‘cause I don’t know how to end
But you told me that the mountain before us
would become a plain in our eyes
So I won’t despise
I won’t despise the day
I won’t despise the day of small things
Even when you tell me…
oh, even then I’m shaking
‘Cause I am afraid of believing
The plans that we make seem so big
But you’ve shown me that we’re never alone
and your spirit will stay by our side
So I won’t despise
I won’t despise the day
I won’t despise the day of small things
I will find my place
I don’t know what’s going on today
but lead me down
whatever path has led me here
I may never conquer this fear
But you have never left me
I have sunken inward and scattered out again
And you have never left
And if I’m brave I will find my place
Maybe courage is not all they say
Cause I have found
that the sweetest moment on this road
is moving forward, not knowing where to go
And you have never left me
I have broken down
and danced around your truth
And you have never left
If I’m brave I will move through fear
Through circling around and nothing’s ever clear
I will find my place, through jumping up and down
and I still can’t see your face
But you have never left me
I have run away and denied your name
and you have never left
You have never left me
And if I’m brave I will, if I’m brave
Hope is strength to walk along
and music to my song
I’ll be redeemed
Light a fire in the cold
buy me back where I am sold
I’ll be redeemed
All the waves of time are crashing
and our innocence is gone
Hope, I’ll be waiting, I’ll be holding on to...
I am never knowing, so I’ll be holding on to
hope
Stay when dirt is on my face
from my ravaging and waste
I’ll be redeemed
Stay close when sand is at my feet
let me hear the parting sea
I’ll be redeemed
If I wait till light is shining
I may never find the day
Hope, I’ll be waiting, I’ll be holding on to…
I am never knowing, so I’ll be holding on to
hope
So quick to turn from promise
So quick to ask the questions
So softly the moon shines down tonight
and all my soul is silent
Hope, I’ll be waiting, I’ll be holding on to…
I am never knowing, so I’ll be holding on to
hope
He knows the forest floor
and the way that it moves
like waves on the ocean
He rises with the sun
just to see the light shine
on the path before him
And sometimes he feels like
he’s walking on water
It’s the miracle of day
and it beckons him to stay
and he says halleluiah for the morning
When night is closing in
and he feels like a child
backed into a corner
He can’t communicate
with the weight that he has
wrapped around his shoulders
And sometimes he feels like
he can’t bare the darkness
But the miracle of day beckons him to stay
and he says halleluiah for the morning
halleluiah for beginning again
beginning again
It feels like life and death
until he gets it off his chest
And he screams into the dark
that the night won’t take his heart
At those times he feels like
he’s moving a mountain
It’s the miracle of day
and it beckons him to stay
and he says halleluiah for the morning
halleluiah for the morning
halleluiah for beginning again
beginning again
And sometimes he feels like
he’s walking on water
It’s eight hours later in Tanzania
When Jen lays down
Mary’s just opening her eyes
Her child’s feet land on the ground
and dirt scatters
And she feels left out in the open
always left out in the open
She says, “son, wear my shoes to school today”
He turns and smiles and walks away
and she thinks to herself…
Someday I will wake
where the earth is clean and safe
My children have a place to play
not here in Tanzania
And someday I will live
in a house that’s built by
hands that hold the world
It’s eight hours earlier in Chattanooga
Mary sits down and Jen’s just put the coffee on
Katie Couric is talking news and fashion
and Jen feels pushed into a corner
always pushed into a corner, she says
“Baby I know what girls at school are like”
And her daughter rides off on her bike
and Jen thinks to herself…
Someday I will wake
where my children get a break
And there are chances that they’ll take
not here in Chattanooga
Someday I will live
in a house that’s built by
hands that hold the world
Well it’s hard to be mother
and it’s hard to be a woman
and it’s hard to live in Africa sometimes
It’s hard to be mother
and it’s hard to be a woman
and it’s hard to live in America sometimes
But someday I will wake
in a body that won’t break
On ground that doesn’t shake, not here
And someday I will live
in a house that’s built by hands that hold the world
Ephesians 4:1-6
As one body we come
with one hope before us
our hearts are open
our hearts are open
As one body we come
with one faith to guide us
our souls are thirsty
our souls are thirsty
Lord, let us drink of your mercy
We are confident of this
that you are the Savior, we believe
One God and Father over all
Your spirit is calling us to your kingdom
As one body we come
with those who’ve gone before us
we will remember, we will remember
As one body we come
with your peace to bind us
bind us together, bind us together
Lord let us be your hands and feet
We are confident of this
that you are the Savior, we believe
One God and Father over all
Your spirit is calling us to your kingdom
And we’ll suffer together
and rejoice together
and we we’ll bless your name together
As one body we come
We are confident of this
that you are the Savior, we believe
One God and Father over all
Your spirit is calling us to your Kingdom
If I had wings on my back
I would fly to your side
If there was something you lack
I would tell you a lie
‘Cause I want to give you everything
I want to give you everything
I could pretend I’m enough
to heal all your scars
Like a creator, I’d say I know just who you are
‘Cause I want to be your everything
I want to be your everything
But I’ll always let you down
I’ll never be everything you need
but I can be
Loving you all through the days
that God gives us life
And if I had wings on my back
I would fly to your side
I’ve been thinking about you lately
What I’m thinking is that you’re crazy
but I love to watch you dance
At a wedding I remember
you were floating like an angel
but I didn’t take the chance
You are fearless when it comes to
lighting up a room
I can love and I can hate
and I know how to hesitate
so teach me how to move
There’s a couple in the corner
they’ve been watching you for hours
envious of your fame
Like your laughter
it’s contagious, when it has a name
You are fearless when it comes to
lighting up a room
I can love and I can hate
and I know how to hesitate
so teach me how to move
You’re light in the dark
and you make me feel like heaven
We can make our mark
leaving hate choosing love together
You are fearless when it comes to
lighting up a room
I can love and I can hate
and I know how to hesitate
so teach me how to move
I’ll be fearless when it comes to
lighting up a room
I can love and I can hate
and I know how to hesitate
but you’ve shown me how to move
People change, families grow
There are hands I am holding
that I didn’t know
back when home was a place
and I thought that growing up was a phase
There are wrinkles on my hands
that weren’t there
when I started making plans
and plans change
Iowa, I don’t know how to leave you
don’t know how to tell you goodbye
Iowa, I am a field after harvest
sowing under a new sky, Iowa
My soul is weathered but green
When a storm passes over the roots are unseen
until all is laid bare
and the hope that I needed was already there
Iowa, I don’t know how to leave you
don’t know how to tell you goodbye
Iowa, I am a field after harvest
sowing under a new sky, Iowa
And there are wrinkles on my hands
that weren’t there
when I started making plans
and plans change, but you haven’t changed
Iowa, I don’t know how to leave you
don’t know how to tell you goodbye
Iowa, I am a field after harvest
sowing under a new sky, Iowa
You just got back in the country
so take an hour and come talk to me
Let’s go out and have coffee like old times
Your eyes are tired and you’re hurried
you drink your latte and off you go
Another night in your studio
And you say that the family is fine
You say that your wife doesn’t mind
the cold in the covers when she goes to sleep
“The kids seem to have their own lives,
don’t miss seeing me on the side lines,
I’m busy, but the family is fine.”
I heard right after it happened
The town is small and we all found out
Divorce was final around Christmas time
The holidays can be lonely
I call you up to see how you’ve been
Your voice is shaky on the other end
But you say that you’re doing just fine
You say that you really don’t mind
the cold in the covers when you go to sleep
“The kids seem to have their own lives,
don’t miss seeing me on the side lines,
I’m busy, but the family is fine.”
Well your wife had a different story
she told me how it spiraled down
She said you couldn’t be a husband or a father
when you were never around
“The children miss him badly, and I do too.
The bed is cold and lonely…”
All she wants is you, all they want is you
So don’t say that the family is fine
Don’t say that your wife doesn’t mind
the cold in the covers when she goes to sleep
The kids seem to have their own lives,
but they miss seeing you on the sidelines
You’re busy, but the family is fine
You’re so busy, and the family is “fine”
All I want to say is that I’m sorry
and I don’t even know why I’m angry anymore
The road just keeps on getting longer
and I’m getting older and I don’t know how
But I can’t run away
to places where the wind blows
I’ve handed over everything I own
to a liar’s dream
I’ve given it my very heart and soul
but they can’t save me now
I wish it weren’t so hard to be forgiving
I’m hurting from the pain
that doesn’t live here anymore
And if I really had to leave it all behind
I will not know how
But I can’t run away
to places where the wind blows
I believe there’s a way
when things seem out of control
I’ve handed over everything I own
to a liar’s dream
I’ve given it my very heart and soul
but they can’t save me now
The cycle is tired of repeating
and I’ve got to move on
‘cause I can’t keep running away
to places where the wind blows
I’ve got to believe that there’s a way
when things seem out of control
Letting go is not romantic
I’ve handed over everything I own
to a liar’s dream
I’ve given it my very heart and soul
but they can’t save
no they can’t save, my heart can’t save me now
Jesus save me now
Hebrews 10:11-14
You are my sacrifice
My lamb I lay on the alter
So that I may have life
Your blood is my way to the father
So I offer up my life
It’s all that I have to give
and I confess that I have sinned
Praise the Lamb, praise the Lamb, praise the Lamb
who was slain
Almighty God, beheld in flesh
Your body, murdered and buried
Rising up, overcoming death
While our burdens, you lifted and carried
So I offer up my life
It’s all that I have to give
and I confess that I have sinned
Praise the Lamb, praise the Lamb, praise the Lamb
who was slain
With one sacrifice
You have forever made perfect
those who are being made holy
We are being made holy
We are being made holy
So I offer up my life
It’s all that I have to give
And I confess that I have sinned
Praise the Lamb, praise the Lamb, praise the Lamb
Who was slain
A churnable soul
Grace me with something new
A smile that I stole
Simply from the thought of you
If we could just meet in the middle of time
It’s gotta be real
There’s more than they can take away
I know how I feel
I just don’t know what to say
From up close your face looks a lot like mine
Maybe we’ll meet in the middle of time
Take another step closer to me
You took me by surprise and I was unprepared
But to my surprise I’m everything but scared
Of love, of you, of us
An unlikely pair
But something works inside
I’m here and you’re there
And we’re making it fine
Somehow we’ve ended up in the same place
If I close my eyes I can picture your face
Take another step closer to me
Tonight at the end of light
Tonight, I feel lonely
I thought I heard my heart stop beating
I long for you to hold me
I guess I feel like Eden
The twilight tried it’s best
Tonight I feel good and evil
Against my chest
Would I love you less or better
If I didn’t miss your face
Read your words like a love letter
Would I have known your grace?
I guess I feel like Eden
Aware of all I am
Tonight I feel good and evil
Against my skin
We’re all homesick
Is love the reason?
My hunger led me to your hope
Until the end of this colder season
Keep us warm
Cause we are always Eden
The day after she fell
We feel good and evil
And choose which one to tell
When all we have is music
You’re a little more like me
We’ve come to far to lose it
This state of imagery
When nothings real and nothings wrong
That’s my favorite part to see
We dance around and we sing our songs
There’s nothing like the wings of an angel
When all the stars are glowing
Wide awake but deep in a dream
Unconscious of any motion
Save for the movement in me
And I know that this will always be
our perfect in-between
so maybe somehow we can help them see
There’s nothing like the wings of an angel
Entranced in sweet obsession
such a complete expression of myself, myself
cause I know where I am planted
deep in a love transcending everything
everything
When all we have is music
You’re a little more like me
I guess I need to choose
But today I am confused and losing ground
Is this part of some plan?
The rise and fall of man?
I can’t be sure
When I’m away from my source of peace
Something fills that space in me
And it feels like I don’t need you
It’s easy to get by
When I don’t even try to find the truth
Today I learned that faith
Is not to be obtained like a place I can go
It’s more of a choice than a feeling
More of a wound than healing
The act of believing in you
And I guess I need to choose
But today I am confused
And losing ground
But maybe this is where I grow
When I admit that I don’t know
When belief becomes the only way to you
An only child in a lonely town
With her head held high and her hair flowing down
Her mama told her babe you know
you’re beautiful inside and out
first day of school and the kids all laughed
as a kick me sign was placed on her back
fighting the tears she walked away
knowing just exactly what mama would say
I don’t need you I don’t need you
I don’t need you cause I know
I’m beautiful, I might be slow
But I’m beautiful
My mama told me so
Thirteen years and not much has changed
You’d think by now they’d stop calling her names
But she still fights the tears and walks on by
Cause she remembers her mamas words
Way back when they needed to be heard
They give her strength to say to herself
I don’t need you I don’t need you
I don’t need you cause I know
I’m beautiful, I might be slow
But I’m beautiful
My mama told me so
Time goes on and so does mamas strength
She says babe, come here I’ve got something to say
You’re mama’s not as young as she used to be
And sometimes I don’t know what Daddy sees in me
And her baby said
You’re beautiful you’re beautiful
You’re beautiful I know
You’re beautiful, you might be slow
But you’re beautiful
You’re baby told you so
I like to say my college
Is living in this town
Some days what seems hardest
Is simply sticking around
With so much to see
Places that I’ve yet to be
And I like to say my colleague
Is the mother at the store
The man who serves me coffee
And john who lives next door
We all study life
Learning how to make things right
We wanna change the world
We wanna make you proud
But lately I’ve come to learn
That it might start here and now
Cause sometimes I look too hard at the big things
When the best thing I can do is love you
Josue tells me stories about his home down south
His mother can’t cross the border
But he’s trying to get her out
He names a price
And turns so I won’t see him cry
People make me hungry
But people keep me sane
Josue taught me more than a professor could explain
About working hard
And using what I have to do my part
Cause I wanna change the world
I wanna make you proud
But lately I’ve come to learn
That it might start here and now
Cause sometimes I look to hard at the big things
When the best thing I can do is love you
But how do I get to love?
I’ll start unselfishly
Can I hold out my hands
Do they even belong to me?
How do I get to love?
I guess it starts inside of me
Cause sometimes I look too hard at the big things
When the best thing I can do is love you
What I want to say is that you let me down
But I want you around now more than ever
And what I wanna do is get out of this town
And forget what we found forever
Maybe it’s true that we won’t remember this after we’re gone
But maybe I’ll leave our memory in a journal or a song
And I won’t tell them we were wrong
I’m tired of the fight; it’s anyone’s guess
What made me confess, it’s over
But hold me tonight; I’ll take nothing less
Than my head on your chest till morning
Maybe it’s true that they won’t remember us after we’re gone
But maybe I’ll leave our memory in a journal or a song
And I won’t tell them we were wrong
So this ones for you, and it’s just as well
That our story would sell a song
In whatever you do and whoever you tell
You can say that we fell but don’t say we were wrong
Where were you tonight?
Did I push you away
Or am I closing my eyes tonight?
Oh honesty
Have you come to rescue me
From everything I can’t admit I’ve done tonight
Cause I know how to lie as well as I know right from wrong
So is it black and white?
Where is the line that I once drew?
One step back feels like miles from you tonight
Oh honesty
come and save me from myself
From everything I can’t admit I am tonight
Cause I know how to lie as well as I know right from wrong
Don’t take the truth from me
The only thing that’s real
And save me honesty
From the way I feel
Cause I know how to lie as well as I know right from wrong
I don’t have words to tell you how I’m feeling
I don’t think any language can
At times like these silence is appealing
Somehow I know you understand
And if I ever lose my hearing
If I ever lose my sight
If all my five senses leave
I know we’d be alright
Cause it seems your heart is a part of mine
So this is how it feels to be breathless
When someone walks out of the room
Stay by me, we can be timeless
Less than forever is too soon
And if we ever lose our hearing
If we ever lose our sight
If all our five senses leave
I know we’d be alright
Cause it seems your heart is a part of mine
I’ve sorted through every word I know to use
And looked for beauty to define
I haven’t found what I want to say to you
But I’ll try for the rest of my life
Lets try for the rest of our lives
And if we ever lose our hearing
If we ever lose our sight
If all our five senses leave
I know we’d be alright
Cause it seems your heart is a part of mine
All the way down, all the way down to where I fell
I stare at the ground, blood that I have spilled
But just to feed me you bend all the way down
All the way down to where I fell
Who is this God that loves me still?
This love that keeps me safe when I run
Safe when I’m young and foolish
Out of the dark, out of the dark that hides my face
I’m coming apart when you say my name
With ties of love you lead me out of the dark
Out of the dark that hides my face
Who is this God that loves me still?
This love that heals me when I am bound
When I am found and humble
With love you lead me
You bend to feed me
Taught me to walk
It was you all along
Who is this God that loves me still?
This love that finds me when I am lost
Although it cost you everything
There’s nothing to cry about tonight
All your thoughts are brave
But they make you tired
It’s only us and the world is small and new
Like I don’t know anything
But how I’m in love with you
I’ll hold you when the nights get long
And hold you when the times get tough
I’ll love you when you’ve had too much
And love you when you can’t get enough
Baby close your eyes
cause we are in the angles keep
Push your worries all aside
And let me rock you back to sleep
There’s nothing to cry about tonight
It’s not your job to know if everyone’s alright
Let me tell you how perfect you are to me
And we’re all that matters now as far as I can see
I’ll hold you when the nights get long
And hold you when the times get tough
I’ll love you when you’ve had too much
And love you when you can’t get enough
Baby close your eyes
cause we are in the angles keep
Push your worries all aside
And let me rock you back to sleep